R2P3D13 – I Now Realize….
As I drove to work this morning I started to tear up and nearly couldn’t stop myself from having a full blown cry, had I not been nearly at work I think I would have given into this crying session my mind wanted to have. I would have rejoiced in it too… As it wasn’t the usual reason why I cry, which is from sadness, pain, anger or frustration but this was an emotion that’s quite foreign to me and has been for many, many years if not an emotion that I’ve never truly felt, the clarity of it I’ve never fully felt, just fleeting glimpses here and there but never quite within reach, this time it was and is, It was truly overwhelming.
Well it was for all the right reasons, for me finally really understanding the saying I have on my thumb ring “Nothing Changes Unless I Change It”, for me understanding I am the master of my destiny, I control what goes on in my life, I control how I use my time, I have to change my life to the life I want to live, nobody else is going to do it for me and nor should they, I have the power, I can say no to myself, I can say yes to life, I am in the process of changing what I am unhappy about, I can have anything in this life that I want, I need to not be fearful any longer, I can say what I want and have it happen, I have already changed my life in one split second, I have the answers, I am going to be wealthy, I am worth it, I am debt free, I am going to live my dreams, I am the key to it happening, I am.
I firstly put it down to this weight loss business, & quitting smoking is amazing, it’s leading me onto a journey of self-discovery, a journey of not settling for anything less than my goals and aspirations, a journey of not being disappointed in my life any more, I have made up my mind to no longer stand for my life as it is, I have made up my mind to go and get the life I want and deserve, it’s truly amazing. But don’t get me wrong I’m not saying that my life is all bad, I have a wonderful partner and two beautiful children that I love with all my heart, I have a house overhead, I life in a country that is grass-fed meat and dairy, we are clean green country, I am thankful to have been born in New Zealand, I have a good job with good income that pays the bills, but I have one ultimate clear goal and I am going to achieve it.
So what’s changed?
It’s like a switch that’s clicked just from seeing a post on Facebook from Chef Pete Evans who was promoting a course you can do in America to be a health coach, this intern made me start thinking of things, made me think how am I going to do this course, without getting into debt, what it could lead too, which intern made me listen to a class that the founder of the school has done, which intern made me start watching Tony Robbins on YouTube which I then went to a second-hand book sale and found the book Think and Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill which I have only just started to read but the realization I had this morning is a result from all of the above and only in a space of 4 days .
Never have I felt this clear in my head, the fog has lifted, the energy I feel is so intense, I feel amazing, this food I’m eating in P3 the supplements I’m taking everything has led me to what I felt this morning. It’s hard for me to explain but I feel my dreams are within my grasp it’s about to all click into place.
It’s up to me, It’s always been me, I have got the tools to achieve what I want to in this life; I’m not going to be trapped in this rat race for much longer…You just watch this space. Life is amazing, my life is amazing, my end goal is pictured in my head, I need to find a way to make it happen, it will and I can’t wait to see it all unfold for it is going to happen and start today just you wait and see.